So I'm beginning to learn that trying to start a business while staying at home with a four year old, two year old, and near 3 month old is like trying to get somewhere while driving a car that has a sticky brake. A lot starts and stops, distraction, and loss of momentum. It's been an interesting ride.
My four year old began 4K this year. Originally, I thought this meant that it freed up my mornings for a few hours so that I could get my beadin' on. Wrong. Apparently it has only freed my two year old son from his regular playmate. So now mama is his new playmate/magic 8 ball/jungle gym. It's not that I'm not enjoying getting to know my two year old better. He is hilarious, sensitive, sweet and curious. Plus, he is a tremendous helper with his little brother as he tends to take up his sister's older sibling duties when she isn't around. I know that sacrificing personal desires for our little ones is part of the motherhood package, but as someone who (pre-kids) used to spend hours in the land of imagination and creation without interruption, it's not one that I have readily accepted. My dream of silent mornings filled with faithful, sparkly, enthralling tiny beads and satisfied sighs after completion of an art piece has yet to come true. But I know that it won't be too long before I'll have that at the pace children grow. So I can wait, and do as I have been doing- catching rare quiet moments here and there when the husband is home and I can bare to ignore housework or constant curious little knocks from little fists on my office door.
"Slow and steady wins the race."
I hope so. And so I keep on.
